The Dignity of Desire: Marc Gafni

marc gafni
posted on marcgafni.com
share comments on info@marcgafni.com

‘Tis Better to Bleed

In a dialogue between a well known Buddhist teacher and myself, the teacher challenged me persistently on this issue of desire. “After all,” he said, “if you give up the desire for life, then death will not be horrifying and painful.”

“No,” I responded, “If I give up the desire for life I will be dead.” Since the debate took place in a kitchen in Jerusalem, I picked up a knife, “Say I would take this knife, and cut my arm. Would it bleed?”

“Of course.”

“Now what if I, with the same knife, cut my hair? No blood. Why? Because the cells in my hair are dead. And dead cells do not bleed.” Part of the eros of longing is to experience pain as well as joy. That is why biblical mystics viewed the inability to grieve and weep as a sign of great spiritual illness.

From the day the Temple was destroyed all the gates are closed; the gates of tears are not closed.

So reads a fifth -century Hebrew wisdom text. The eros of tears, an inevitable corollary of longing and desire, is the way back to the eros of the Temple, to the inside, and to a full sense of your own aliveness. Erotic master of the inside, Nachman of Bratzlav writes, “A human being is like an onion: strip away layer after layer and all that remains are the tears.” To reach the inner recesses of a thing one must be willing to weep.

marc gafni
posted on info@marcgafni.com
share comments on marcgafni.com